I started thinking about an interesting theory the other day. I know myself to be a very jealous person (but in a hidden way, I think.. written a bit about it here and here), and I started thinking about people I didn’t like – or rather what I didn’t like about them.

I then realized that a lot of the things I didn’t like were things I didn’t have. I have problems with some of those people because they have a higher level of self confidence than I feel they should. A sort of positively distorted view of themselves in my eyes, if you will. But who am I to judge those people in that way – especially when you consider the fact that a good self confidence is a good thing on nearly all levels.

Another thing I’ve been annoyed by is christians, or rather by their christianity. It’s not like I dislike the people, but I sort of do not respect the christian churches and the opinions they force upon people, and that attributes to christian people I talk to.

A third example is people who simply is very good at something and is aware of that fact. It doesn’t always annoy me (seldom does with good friends), but it happens. I often try to sneak inbetween conversations that I’m a little good at something too, but it usually just makes me feel stupid afterwards.

Anyway, while these are not the only reason why I dislike some people, these examples have something in common as I mentioned: These people have something I don’t have, in a non-material way.
So my conclusion to that was simply that a big reason to why I don’t like some people is because I’m jealous at them.

And that is a not a very funny thought, as you don’t really want to know that the people you don’t like is the way you want to be, if you follow me. But still I find it to be very true, and I’ve partly adapted to it by trying to dislike people a bit less because of it. And obviously there are a lot of people I dislike who I aren’t jealous at at all, so it doesn’t apply to everything.

But it sure applies to some, and I’m not too happy about that. How about you – do you feel the same way? I doubt I’m the only jealous one out there :)