A year and a few months ago, I called this weblog “Complainblog” and at that time, I suppose it was fairly correct. Lately, I’ve been trying to avoid complaining too much, and I think I’ve partly succeeded.

Anyhow, I’ve stacked up lots of items in my “to-post-list” that can hardly be written in any other style than ranting/complaining. So I got a bright idea — Why not post all of them in just one post instead of splitting them up, so people who didn’t really want to hear me rant could just skip it? So that’s what I’m doing with this post.
Following this is different things that is bothering me or has been bothering me lately. If you don’t want to read my rants, just skip this post. Thanks..

Where’s the links?
I think Ununique is the weblog that I know of (that’s not only about someones life) that links the least. And yes, I’m slightly ashamed of that. Lots of other people post cool, interesting stuff that I really should link to, but for some reason I just don’t. Sorry about that.

Me? Boring?
I’m a terribly boring human being. According to me, anyway.. I’m not funny, I’m never the one to have the good ideas about doing something fun, I’m never the one to go for the funny ideas because I’m afraid of any eventual consequences, etc. I’m always the one who’s just tagging along, laughing in the background. Never the one to lead the fun. And yeah, it’s bugging me, and it’s bugging me way more than it should IMHO.

Is there anything I can do about it, I wonder? Should I try to do anything about it? I obviously try to be funny at times, but as I’m not, it usually fails more or less miserably. Is there a solution? I’m guessing the solution is to stop trying, and just accept it..

Oh, So Jealous
It’s funny how I get jealous at pretty much everything and everyone. I’m jealous at people because they got more friends than me, I’m jealous at people because they seem to have more fun than me, I’m jealous at people because they have a girlfriend.. and so on. The list just doesn’t stop anytime soon.

And seriously – this has got to stop! And again, I wonder how. I cannot think of a single good thing which comes out of being jealous, and it makes me just feel.. stupid. Both because of the thing I’m jealous about and the fact that I do get jealous. As I said, it has to stop. Now. Please.

Need to fix my self esteem!
Last, but not least — I need to fix my self esteem. My self esteem is probably closely tied to 2 of the 3 above topics. Because my self esteem isn’t particularly good these days.. unfortunately. I need to fix it somehow, get some good feedback from people or something. No, I don’t mean here. Just in general – at work, at home, something.

We’ll see. :)

Ok, that’s it. Not tooo bad, was it? If you actually read it, it couldn’t have been. Thanks for listening and allowing me (haha, like you had a choice) to vent a bit. It always feels good..